Well as I sat there in front of the fireplace, then laying on my couch, and tossing and turning in my bed. Memories are shooting in my head. Around a year ago many new things were happening. Many new experiences. I was having Nerf wars with 2 of my best friends all the time. (I know it's very kiddish, but that's who we are) Parties were happening almost every weekend among best friends. Christmas ideas were being spread from person to person. To put it into a short little phrase it would be Christmas joy was being spread!
Whenever I'm sick I usually can't sleep at all. So instead I think. (It doesn't really help the whole head hurting but it gets my mind off the pain) That night I forgot to take off my necklace. I grab it; very scared I broke it yet again. To my surprise it wasn't broken! I grab it in between my fingers and just starred at it. It made me laugh and smile. But all of a sudden that smile and laughter turned into something else. I wipped my cheeks and notice I was crying now. It caught me off guard.
All I could think is why am I crying? I think I'm going crazy from all these pills I'm taking! Then I realized why I was. With the necklace in my hands still; I looked around my room at the pictures that are on my walls. The necklace I have in my hand now is almost a year old! I don't think I've ever been able to have something in my life for a year. As I thought about that I realized many things have stayed in my life.
I noticed how lucky I am that I get to stay away from the drama as much as possible, I get the silly friends that stick by my side, I get the family that's always going to be there, the silly boy that never has doubts, and the memories that I always get. The memories I get to laugh at while I'm sicker than a dog. I'm one lucky person even if I'm quite sick and barely can get a grasp on what's going on.
Sick but okay,
Maranda :)
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