At the End of the Day

At the end of a long, struggling and difficult day... At the end of an amazing, almost heaven and nothing went wrong day... At the end of a just plain out boring as hell day... The day your eyes were open... The day you closed your eyes because it just became a little to much to handle... The day your world was flipped and changed forever... The day you had thoughts about giving up... The day you found out you have so much... The day you thought you had nothing... The day you started planning your future... The day you looked at your past... The day you opened up and let someone see who you truly are... The day you let out of the emotions you have been holding in for hours, days, months, or maybe even years...

All of those days have you ever noticed how much you are really thinking about? How many names run through your head. The people you hate, love, don't really care about, barely know, and the people you have seen once; their names are in your mind. It's so random. It's strange. You feel things that hit you so hard they make you cry. Those feelings can make you smile so much it just can't go away and it makes your cheeks hurt like no other but yet that smile is still there which makes you smile even bigger!

Those are the days where you sit in your bed at the end of the day and you just think. You think about anything and everything. The bad to the good. It doesn't matter what it is but it's all going through your head with no control.

Then something happens though. It's strange and you can't quite but your finger on it. Your going crazy it's at the tip of your tongue. Then you just stop. It hits you so hard. So fast your gasping for air. Your head is spinning and all you want is for it to stop.

Those memories... Those thoughts... Everything that was just flying through you head just stops but one thing is still there. One thing. One little thing that you never really even thought about. You didn't even honestly think it truly mattered. At the moment though you realize you have been wrong. So incredibly wrong and you feel like such an idiot.

You realize what truly matters at the end of the day.

I truly wish I could finish this. Tell you what truly matters at the end of the day. Here's the thing though. I can't tell you what it is. Everyone has something different that matters to them. If you don't know yet you will one day. It will hit you like a ton of bricks. Yes, I know it sounds painful but it's incredible. You'll get what I mean when it happens. To be honest I'm so happy I can't finish this and tell you what it is because you're going to think about this now and something will click for you and a smile will pop on your face the second it does. When that smile does reaches your face that's when my job has been done. I hope that I have helped a little in your life.

I hope you realize what truly matters at the end of the day for you. It will almost make life a little bit more easy and joyful. (Less confusion is always a plus)

At the End of the Day,

Maranda :)